Goodbye, Koala…
I didn’t want to regret that I was not able to give her my best.. yet… I feel like the worst person for leaving her to the vets and not being with her at her time of departure… I love her that’s what I’m sure of. I wanted me, Branch and her to live a long happy life together. I didn’t want to give up on her. I’m sure she gave it her best as well and I thank her for it. Yet… maybe it’s inevitable. Until the last minute, I didn’t care how much my expenses would be, I wanted to give her the best. Money will come back but a life…
To my baby: “I’m sorry I wasn’t able to hug you during your last minutes. I’m very sorry I let you go through those procedures during your last minutes. I’m very sorry if I wasn’t able to give the best. I’m very sorry that I didn’t know. I’m very sorry I let you go through that. I already miss you and I will forever remember the time you slept on me… the time I rushed Branch to the hospital, you sleeping.. and wiggling your nose is one of the cutest things I have ever encountered. I will miss the times that you poke on my ankle to ask for food. I will miss the times that you greeted me and ran towards me whenever I arrived at the door. The times we rubbed noses together. I remember the time you kept licking my hands and cuddled under them after I rushed Branch to the hospital… it was sort of like a “Thank you for rushing him to the hospital”… and the time you were comforting him when he was in pain…. you two were inseperable… so much in love… I remember the time you were so happy when he arrived home but couldn’t spend time with him because you two had to be isolated. We already miss you. I’ll continue to give Branch my best. I wish I can have you back. I wish I never lost you…. I will miss you very much and I’m sure Branch already does. I love you, Baby… I hope you find Elda, Angelo, Banikong and Freya up there. I’m sure you’ll all have fun. It’s terrible to lose you but… we’ll see you soon… I love you… we all do. I’m sure you’re in a better place now. Thank you for all the happiness and love. Though me and Branch will not be able to continue showing our love to you physically… we love you and we’ll continue to do so until the end of our days. It’s hard to say this especially when your cuteness is still fresh in my memory but… Goodbye, Baby… again… sorry… and thank you for everything… being strong… putting up with me… loving me… we love you and we pray for your new happy life now. *mwah*… :) “
Koala 09/14/11
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buknoybol said:
Aww. My condolences, Monika. :(
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